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My goal is to write, film, and photograph my way around the world without the use of air travel.
I have no experience in any of these areas and I have never made a cent doing anything like this. The following are the Top 10 things I hope to experience along the way.
I want whatever the feeling is that creeps into my bloodstream every Sunday night gone. It’s the one that leaves me dreading the next day and wishing the weekend had a rewind button. I want to wake up on Monday mornings, and every day for that matter, excited for what I’m about to do. I want to have a hard time falling asleep each night because I know the next day is filled with purpose and enthusiasm. I no longer want to be able to tell Tuesdays from Saturdays or Fridays from Mondays.
In the past when things got tough or too difficult I’ve quit. To sum it up, I’ve only ever been happy when the conditions around me are ideal and that’s not real happiness. I imagine that this is going to be a long road full of obstacles – some of which I don’t even currently know exist. As Mike Tyson so acutely put it, ‘Everyone has a plan ’till they get punched in the mouth’. I want to overcome trying times by digging deeper and getting to know my true self. I want to find the good in each setback and build as much fluidity as possible.
It’s easy for me to get caught up in how impossible this dream seems. That someone who doesn’t know the difference between there, their, and they’re can write entertaining short stories, or that someone who can’t explain what shutter speed and aperture are can film and photograph at a high level. I just want focus on the step I am taking now and not focus on how this is all going to work. There should be a presence and ease to everything I do, and if that’s missing then I’ll know I’m trying too hard.
I’ve worked in education for the past 12 years, but I don’t think I’ve ever taught anyone anything of any real importance. If one person does one thing they didn’t think they could do because of me, then I will consider this a success – even if that one person is me.
I’m leaving behind routine, and, with that, safety. No more paychecks every two weeks, no more access to health care, and no guaranteed place to rest my head each night. I want to trust my intuition and not hold anything back even when my doubts perk up and tell me that I’m not good enough. I want everything I write, film, and photograph to explode into life even at the risk of looking foolish. I want to give this everything I have, and show through my choices that life is not so much about discovering yourself as it is about creating yourself.
5. Say Yes
If saying ‘yes’ opens doors then saying ‘no’ shuts them. I’ve said ‘no’ so many times that people eventually stopped asking. I’ve come up with every excuse in the book to sit at home alone, idle and inactive, watching bad t.v. I’ve missed out on piling into a car with my friends and laughing about things only friends can laugh about. I’ve skipped trying new foods because they looked funny, and stayed indoors during extraordinary sunsets because my familiar couch was calling my name. So from now on when someone asks, instead of talking myself out of happiness, I’ll reply with yes.
4. Become the Proof
I truly believe that everything is possible, but I want proof. And I want to be that proof. When I started working towards my dream, I had zero experience in any of the areas my dream required. I failed English classes in high school, the only camera I had was the one inside my phone, I knew nothing about website design, and I couldn’t find anyone that would help me. I want to be the proof that you don’t need to be an expert to pursue your dream. That all you have to do is take upon yourself to learn that which you desire, and never give up.
3. Make Money
I’m not doing this for money, but I need it. If money were the most important thing to me I would have kept working the two jobs that I couldn’t stand. I want to make enough to live the life I want to live. I told my parents once that I would rather be broke in Bangkok than have money in Miami. With that said, I’m willing to beg and barter my way around the globe, but I want my website to generate enough revenue that it will cover my basic living and traveling expenses so that the 9-5 realm I left can remain a reference point of days long passed.
I want to run my website on my own terms, and I want to write for myself without deadlines or pre-contrived stories. A few years ago I attended a travel bloggers convention in Vancouver where every blogger in attendance had done extensive research on the city before they arrived. They had story ideas and Top 10 lists already drafted in their heads before they even walked down Robson Street. I don’t want to go out into the world looking for stories – I want the stories to find me. I want to live and experience the actual moments, doing the discovering firsthand.
1. Wildest Dream
If the above 9 happen, this will take care of itself. Since we only get one shot at this life, I want to live not just my dream, but my wildest dream … isn’t that the point of being here anyway?